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Saturday, August 22, 2015

Roads Go Ever On

Here is the full poem from which "Round the Corner" is from.

Roads Go Ever On

by

JRR Tolkien


Roads go ever ever on,
Over rock and under tree,
By caves where never sun has shone,
By streams that never find the sea;
Over snow by winter sown,
And through the merry flowers of June,
Over grass and over stone,
And under mountains in the moon.

Roads go ever ever on,
Under cloud and under star.
Yet feet that wandering have gone
Turn at last to home afar.
Eyes that fire and sword have seen,
And horror in the halls of stone
Look at last on meadows green,
And trees and hills they long have known.

The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way,
Where many paths and errands meet.

The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with weary feet,
Until it joins some larger way,
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.

The Road goes ever on and on
Out from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone.
Let others follow, if they can!
Let them a journey new begin.
But I at last with weary feet
Will turn towards the lighted inn,
My evening-rest and sleep to meet.

Still 'round the corner there may wait
A new road or secret gate;
And though I oft have passed them by,
A day will come at last when I
Shall take the hidden paths that run
West of the Moon, East of the Sun.

"Round the Corner"

"Round the Corner" is the new title for my blog which was originally named "The Journey". I was inspired to take this new title from a quote by JRR Tolkien: "Still round the corner there may wait a new road or secret gate". "Round the Corner" is a continuation of "The Jouney" and will be filled with short stories, folklore, history, book reviews, music, recipes, and discussions concerning all the roads, gates, doors, walls, whatever, we find as we go "Round the Corner"

“Still round the corner there may wait
A new road or a secret gate
And though I oft have passed them by
A day will come at last when I
Shall take the hidden paths that run
West of the Moon, East of the Sun.” 

Hope you enjoy this new format and have fun with it!  

Saturday, June 20, 2015

I See...


Today is June 20,2015.  It's the last day of spring.  Tomorrow brings the first day of summer and in the US the celebration of fathers.  A little information for you is that the week between June 19 - June 25 is known as Midsummer and June 24th was designated by the Christian Church as being St John the Baptist's Day. This year Ramadan has fallen in this period of time as well, from June 17th - July 17th.  This moment in time is special for so many for entirely different thoughts; yet, I find myself sitting here, thinking over the events and discourse which grips us all.

Time, of course, continues to move however swiftly or slowly it is perceived by each individual.  Every second ticking by provides us with motivations, changes, experiences, decisions, and multitudes of other reflections of life.  We find ourselves deluged with information the media gives us to which we respond with gripping horror, enthralled wonder, or bored indifference among the gamut of emotions we reciprocate with.
This period of time has been filled with it all which I have been reflecting upon in order to find some sort of explanation for.  Religious faith has bloomed with love; at the same time, it has writhed with convulsions spewing hatred and venom. Some politicians have expressed compassion and abhorrence; others seem indifferent or at best, dismissive of the devastating murders in Charleston.  Rage is displayed by all, but for totally different reasons.  Blame is barraged around from the suspect to the victims.  Hatred boils forth as love enfolds.  Answers are sought; yet none provide comfort.  Many condemn, others cheer.  Prejudice flies forward while respect and diversity envelop and shield.

The murders of 9 worshipers within a House of God by one angry individual has impacted not only the US, but the world.  Nine black Americans slaughtered by a white supremacist man has escalated the concerns, fears, and outrage of a country all ready reeling from racial disparities which have flooded across the nation with killings of black Americans by those sworn to protect all citizens; with the disregard and malice toward Hispanic Americans; with antagonism and animosity toward Muslim Americans; with ridicule and contempt toward Asian Americans; with abomination and acrimony toward the LGBTQ community; with loathing and enmity toward non-Christians, with grudges and bitterness toward the poor; with antipathy and disapproval toward anyone who is deemed different from the so-called norm of society.

I cannot help but wonder if the 9 are the catalyst to begin change and discourse; that their lives were not lost to be construed within a statistic.  I ponder on how their murders have been politicized by those whose hatred gushes and leaves one feeling bereft of empathy and tenderness.  Then I look at the news and see the murder of a New Orleans police officer.  I see the dehumanization of the homeless.  I see the loss of innocence of a young girl as she watches her father kill her mother in front of her.  I see the manipulation of women being perceived as the  culprits rather than the victims of sexual assault.  I see man subjugate religious ideals to overpower and bastardize faith by enforcing and fear mongering their followers.

Now I look around and look toward a different perspective.  I see the families of the 9, one after another forgiving the man who took the lives of their loved ones.  I see vigils being held at houses of worship for the 9 and for those of us who are trying to comprehend this cowardly act of murder.  I remember the young black woman who threw her body over the white supremacist in order to protect him.  I see the two young boys who raced into a burning mobile home to save the life of two babies.  I see the college students gathering around a 52 year old woman protecting her, showering her with love when a religous fanatic insults her, as she stands and protects the love of Christ over his rhetoric of hate.  I see the people who search for the senior citizen suffering from dementia who has wandered away.  I see the ministers who stand, link arms, and march for love, equality, and protection. I see the parents, friends, and family of children cleaving away the shackles of genderizing. I see the Olympian and the struggles ensued as she embodies her identity of transgender.  I see the Muslim women in a restroom at a theme park reacting with fear as two white women walk in and then the smiles of love and gratitude when they are shown respect and caring.  I see young men protecting a lesbian from the name calling of homophobics and I see love between two gay men as they marry one another.

I smile and acknowledge that which is a universal truth.  Good does triumph!  Love does overcome!  The light shines bright within the darkest of nights.  It is time which marches ever forward.  It is this moment and the next which conveys to us the right.  It is we who create the change not by being inert or stagnant, but by being active and pursuing the good for all of us, not just the privileged few.  It means leaving the comfort zone and standing up for human rights.  It means not arguing, but informing.  It means not violence, but comfort.  It means justice guided by truth and compassion, not coldness.

Finally, I reflect on the meaning of Father's Day.  I think of the chiildren whose fathers have been taken away by violence.  I think of the fathers whose children have been massacred by hatred.  I think of two young women I know whose father died and how much they miss him and would love to spend tomorrow with him.  I think of my friends who; although we are in our 50s mourn the loss of their fathers.  I think of fathers who seem to have distanced themselves from their children and wonder at the pain they have suffered to have done this.  I think of the single mothers who are both father and mother to their children who are constantly besieged by politicians, religious organizations, and individuals at how they are horrible parents and how much their children deserve fathers; and I wonder if any of those condemning and judging have ever thought that maybe, just maybe being supportive and compassionate would be welcoming.  I think of the single fathers who love their children.  I think of gay men who wish to adopt and be fathers to so many children who have no parents.  I think of fathers who feel that since it is Father's Day tomorrow they can do what the want on "their day" and I think of their children and the mothers of these gifts from Heaven who just want to be with their dads.  Most importantly, I think of fathers every where who work, protect, teach, and love their children and show their children how much they love the woman who gave them the gift of being a father.

Time keeps moving forward and; yet, we are given moments to define and engage in.  It is up to us to prove Shakespeare wrong when he wrote in A Mid-Summer's Night Dream:  "Lord, what fools the mortals be! (3.2).  It is we who have the ability and the power to join together rather than be pulled apart and hide in the shadows of anger and fear.

So, I am at peace.  Contentment has come to me as I move forward with this thought "It's not how many years you've lived...but how you've lived them.  Someone once told me that time is a predator that stalks us all our lives.  But maybe time is also a companion who goes with us on our journey, and reminds us to cherish the moments of our lives...because they will never come again.  We are after all, only mortal.  (Star Trek Generations  185, Picard).

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Horror stories or Reality.....which is worse

Hi there!  Yeah, I Know it's been awhile; unfortunately when the notebook decides not to work well, I can't do as much as I want.  Today, I am hoping it will keep going for me.  Enough of that, instead, how's your day going?  Mine is pretty good actually.  It's been raining which means a great day for reading horror stories.  I am into one and find it interesting.  A number of normal horror attributes; you know, an enormous Gothic style asylum; a dark gloomy night; new person starting a job there; and the old employee who can't wait to tell you all about the grisly history of the place.  A great beginning so typical of many horror tales, yet, one we love to read over and over again.

I admit it, it's grabbed my attention. I'm enjoying today.  It fits with the dark, moisture filled clouds hovering in the sky right now.  A perfect read for csa perfect day.  Then, I started thinking.  "Why is it always the dark secluded Victorian aged (or older) mansions used as the settings for horror.  The history of the house or town even, is important in staging the reaction of the mind's imagination."  You have to admit, it usually is.  Some creepy looking place to project the mood.  And we fall for it every time.

"Now", I ponder, "What would happen if we changed all that.  Suppose the story takes place in a middle-class suburb.  The homes are filled with 'normal families',  going about doing 'normal family things'.  Like taking the kids to sports practice, grocery shopping, heading to a mall, barbecuing, talking to the neighbors, going to church, and all those other 'normal activities'. "

I sat there thinking about this.  It's been done, but what do we always prefer:  yeah, the good old creepy abnormal places.  Then I began contemplating the monsters which we all know fill horror stories.  You know the ones:  the lunatics, serial killers, ghosts, whatever.  Horror stories are bursting with these stereotyped monsters.  My muse was awakened.  "The monsters of horror are traditionally those who are considered by society as deviants,  Individuals who reside in the boundaries or margins of our perceived 'normal relations' in our communities.  We all know this is a ruse to stop us from realizing that the monsters reside right next to us.  The ones who are 'normal'.

Yeah, the monsters are the people we live by or even with. They go through the motions of 'normal society'.  They become our friends, our loves, our family.  They grow in our hearts and we never suspect.  They attend church further promoting the propagation of their 'normalcy'.  Then, when we are caught within their tangled tendrils of falsehoods, we are confronted with the truth.  A light ignites within, but is squashed as we discover the naked realities of these monsters.  So and so, is molesting your child.  You know who, beats the spouse and children.  That wonderful friend is a drug dealer, telling you how he/she wants to help you, urging you to take the pills he/she tries to convince you to take.  The sweet neighbor is a thief and prostitute, hiding in the shadows supporting a drug habit.  A church acquaintance revels in exclaiming hatred toward homosexuals, wanting them to be killed.  A family member spews racial hatred with foul and abhorrent constancy.

"Yes", I shudder!  "The truth is the monsters are among us all the time and in the end we must choose our path in this 'normalcy'.  Do we move to bring our the truth or do we in turn become monsters ourselves, slaves to the evil which permeates throughout our lives?




Monday, April 6, 2015

Just a little fun.....

She stepped out of the car and stared at the scene in front of her.  A winter wonderland tableau held her captive as though it had just been created for her.  The tree lined drive ended in front of a three story Contemporary architectural house.  Its smooth lines and walls curved away from the central entryway impressing an illusion of rounded hills and curved valleys which the house was surrounded by.  It seemed as though the house was a natural protrusion from the natural world around it.  The fieldstone covering the exterior walls contained large expansive windows creating a vision of openness and freedom. The central entryway was framed with lanterns whose soft glow in the early evening displayed the dancing of snowflakes in its wake.

She smiled at the sight and sighed.  "Finally, my own place to relax at".  Stepping back in the car, she pulled into the drive.  She pressed a button and a garage door slid open as she turned the vehicle down a ramp that led under the house.  As she passed through, the door closed silently behind her and lights flipped on in the garage.  Rolling to a stop, she turned off the car, and grabbed her purse from the floor.  She smiled as two of her companions waited impatiently to be released and three others began yowling at the sudden stop of music and movement.  "Okay, Bella and Booker, out you go.  The small female German Shepherd bounded out of the vehicle with the young Black Labrador Retriever right behind her.  As they unleashed their pent up energy chasing one another around the four vehicle underground garage, the three cats increased their caterwauling in volume and tone.  "Alright you three, just give me a couple of minutes".  She pulled their traveling carriers out of the back seat and walked over to the elevator which led to the upper floors of the house.  Placing two of the carriers on the floor, she headed back to the car for the third one who was screaming his dislike at having been left behind.  "Mikael, I'm right here".  She dragged his carrier out and headed back to the elevator.  "Bella!  Booker!  Come here!"  The two dogs stopped their playing, looked at her, and went back to their business of chasing one another.
"Do you want your treats?"  She asked.  The two stopped again, both cocking their heads at her.  Bella, with her right ear bent down and a smile on her face stepped toward the woman.  Booker, loped behind, his mouth nipping at Bella's tail trying to get some more play time in.  "Come here"! She called again and led the two pups, plus the spitting Mikael into the elevator.  As the door closed behind them, Bella went into a guarding stance staring at the door.  Booker imitated her and let a low growl loose.  "It's okay you two.  You will get use to this".  Both looked up at her, wagged their tails, but did not move from their guarding positions.

The door opened and she led the pups into a hallway which led to another door.  At this one she entered a code which unlocked the door and disarmed the alarm.  "There you go". She told the two who promptly lowered their noses to the floor and began sniffing the area around them.  She went back down the hallway to where the cats were screaming in chorus and brought them into room with the dogs.  Opening the latch to each carrier, she left the cats to come out on their own, for as usual the minute the carriers were open and they could get out, they naturally moved to the back of it and yowled some more.    She sighed and headed back to the elevator. "One good thing, at least the lights turned on when I unlocked the door, so we can all see in here.  I'll be right back!"

Back at the car, she opened the trunk and began pulling luggage out and piling it into the elevator.  Then she grabbed two pans from the back seat and chuckled.  "The cats will definitely want these."  Next to the pans went cat litter, cat food, and dog food.  Finally, the car was empty of everything she had packed in it and she was busy stowing away different items in the kitchen. The dogs came running into the room and Booker slid across the floor as he tried to slow down.  Bella came to a stop beside her mistress, cocking her head to the side with her tongue hanging out sideways from her mouth. Booker finally stopped as he slid into the wall, bounced off, and came toward Bella with his tongue lolling out as well.  The woman shook her head at them and laughed.  "You two are hilarious!  Your food bowl is here and the water dish is right beside it".  Both dogs barked happily and as Bella dug into the food, Booker lapped at the water.  Then they traded places.

Still chuckling at the antics of the pups, she put away the food she had bought in the last city she had gone through. She wasn't hungry yet; and decided she wanted to explore the rest of her new home.  She had sent the rest of her luggage up to the third floor which still awaited her attention, but as for now it was time to see her vision come to life.






Thursday, December 25, 2014

The Festival by HP Lovecraft




In honor and remembrance of Victorian Christmases past, a spooky tale to share....

The Festival

by 


Efficiunt Daemones, ut quae non sunt, sic tamen quasi sint, conspicienda hominibus exhibeant.
(Devils so work that things which are not appear to men as if they were real.)
—Lactantius
I was far from home, and the spell of the eastern sea was upon me. In the twilight I heard it pounding on the rocks, and I knew it lay just over the hill where the twisting willows writhed against the clearing sky and the first stars of evening. And because my fathers had called me to the old town beyond, I pushed on through the shallow, new-fallen snow along the road that soared lonely up to where Aldebaran twinkled among the trees; on toward the very ancient town I had never seen but often dreamed of.
It was the Yuletide, that men call Christmas though they know in their hearts it is older than Bethlehem and Babylon, older than Memphis and mankind. It was the Yuletide, and I had come at last to the ancient sea town where my people had dwelt and kept festival in the elder time when festival was forbidden; where also they had commanded their sons to keep festival once every century, that the memory of primal secrets might not be forgotten. Mine were an old people, and were old even when this land was settled three hundred years before. And they were strange, because they had come as dark furtive folk from opiate southern gardens of orchids, and spoken another tongue before they learnt the tongue of the blue-eyed fishers. And now they were scattered, and shared only the rituals of mysteries that none living could understand. I was the only one who came back that night to the old fishing town as legend bade, for only the poor and the lonely remember.
Then beyond the hill's crest I saw Kingsport outspread frostily in the gloaming; snowy Kingsport with its ancient vanes and steeples, ridgepoles and chimney-pots, wharves and small bridges, willow-trees and graveyards; endless labyrinths of steep, narrow, crooked streets, and dizzy church-crowned central peak that time durst not touch; ceaseless mazes of colonial houses piled and scattered at all angles and levels like a child's disordered blocks; antiquity hovering on grey wings over winter-whitened gables and gambrel roofs; fanlights and small-paned windows one by one gleaming out in the cold dusk to join Orion and the archaic stars. And against the rotting wharves the sea pounded; the secretive, immemorial sea out of which the people had come in the elder time.
Beside the road at its crest a still higher summit rose, bleak and windswept, and I saw that it was a burying-ground where black gravestones stuck ghoulishly through the snow like the decayed fingernails of a gigantic corpse. The printless road was very lonely, and sometimes I thought I heard a distant horrible creaking as of a gibbet in the wind. They had hanged four kinsmen of mine for witchcraft in 1692, but I did not know just where.
As the road wound down the seaward slope I listened for the merry sounds of a village at evening, but did not hear them. Then I thought of the season, and felt that these old Puritan folk might well have Christmas customs strange to me, and full of silent hearthside prayer. So after that I did not listen for merriment or look for wayfarers, kept on down past the hushed lighted farmhouses and shadowy stone walls to where the signs of ancient shops and sea taverns creaked in the salt breeze, and the grotesque knockers of pillared doorways glistened along deserted unpaved lanes in the light of little, curtained windows.
I had seen maps of the town, and knew where to find the home of my people. It was told that I should be known and welcomed, for village legend lives long; so I hastened through Back Street to Circle Court, and across the fresh snow on the one full flagstone pavement in the town, to where Green Lane leads off behind the Market House. The old maps still held good, and I had no trouble; though at Arkham they must have lied when they said the trolleys ran to this place, since I saw not a wire overhead. Snow would have hid the rails in any case. I was glad I had chosen to walk, for the white village had seemed very beautiful from the hill; and now I was eager to knock at the door of my people, the seventh house on the left in Green Lane, with an ancient peaked roof and jutting second storey, all built before 1650.
There were lights inside the house when I came upon it, and I saw from the diamond window-panes that it must have been kept very close to its antique state. The upper part overhung the narrow grass-grown street and nearly met the over-hanging part of the house opposite, so that I was almost in a tunnel, with the low stone doorstep wholly free from snow. There was no sidewalk, but many houses had high doors reached by double flights of steps with iron railings. It was an odd scene, and because I was strange to New England I had never known its like before. Though it pleased me, I would have relished it better if there had been footprints in the snow, and people in the streets, and a few windows without drawn curtains.
When I sounded the archaic iron knocker I was half afraid. Some fear had been gathering in me, perhaps because of the strangeness of my heritage, and the bleakness of the evening, and the queerness of the silence in that aged town of curious customs. And when my knock was answered I was fully afraid, because I had not heard any footsteps before the door creaked open. But I was not afraid long, for the gowned, slippered old man in the doorway had a bland face that reassured me; and though he made signs that he was dumb, he wrote a quaint and ancient welcome with the stylus and wax tablet he carried.
He beckoned me into a low, candle-lit room with massive exposed rafters and dark, stiff, sparse furniture of the seventeenth century. The past was vivid there, for not an attribute was missing. There was a cavernous fireplace and a spinning-wheel at which a bent old woman in loose wrapper and deep poke-bonnet sat back toward me, silently spinning despite the festive season. An indefinite dampness seemed upon the place, and I marvelled that no fire should be blazing. The high-backed settle faced the row of curtained windows at the left, and seemed to be occupied, though I was not sure. I did not like everything about what I saw, and felt again the fear I had had. This fear grew stronger from what had before lessened it, for the more I looked at the old man's bland face the more its very blandness terrified me. The eyes never moved, and the skin was too much like wax. Finally I was sure it was not a face at all, but a fiendishly cunning mask. But the flabby hands, curiously gloved, wrote genially on the tablet and told me I must wait a while before I could be led to the place of the festival.
Pointing to a chair, table, and pile of books, the old man now left the room; and when I sat down to read I saw that the books were hoary and mouldy, and that they included old Morryster's wild Marvels of Science, the terrible Saducismus Triumphatus of Joseph Glanvil, published in 1681, the shocking Daemonolatreja of Remigius, printed in 1595 at Lyons, and worst of all, the unmentionable Necronomicon of the mad Arab Abdul Alhazred, in Olaus Wormius' forbidden Latin translation; a book which I had never seen, but of which I had heard monstrous things whispered. No one spoke to me, but I could hear the creaking of signs in the wind outside, and the whir of the wheel as the bonneted old woman continued her silent spinning, spinning. I thought the room and the books and the people very morbid and disquieting, but because an old tradition of my fathers had summoned me to strange feastings, I resolved to expect queer things. So I tried to read, and soon became tremblingly absorbed by something I found in that accursed Necronomicon; a thought and a legend too hideous for sanity or consciousness, but I disliked it when I fancied I heard the closing of one of the windows that the settle faced, as if it had been stealthily opened. It had seemed to follow a whirring that was not of the old woman's spinning-wheel. This was not much, though, for the old woman was spinning very hard, and the aged clock had been striking. After that I lost the feeling that there were persons on the settle, and was reading intently and shudderingly when the old man came back booted and dressed in a loose antique costume, and sat down on that very bench, so that I could not see him. It was certainly nervous waiting, and the blasphemous book in my hands made it doubly so. When eleven struck, however, the old man stood up, glided to a massive carved chest in a corner, and got two hooded cloaks; one of which he donned, and the other of which he draped round the old woman, who was ceasing her monotonous spinning. Then they both started for the outer door; the woman lamely creeping, and the old man, after picking up the very book I had been reading, beckoning me as he drew his hood over that unmoving face or mask.
We went out into the moonless and tortuous network of that incredibly ancient town; went out as the lights in the curtained windows disappeared one by one, and the Dog Star leered at the throng of cowled, cloaked figures that poured silently from every doorway and formed monstrous processions up this street and that, past the creaking signs and antediluvian gables, the thatched roofs and diamond-paned windows; threading precipitous lanes where decaying houses overlapped and crumbled together; gliding across open courts and churchyards where the bobbing lanthorns made eldritch drunken constellations.
Amid these hushed throngs I followed my voiceless guides; jostled by elbows that seemed preternaturally soft, and pressed by chests and stomachs that seemed abnormally pulpy; but seeing never a face and hearing never a word. Up, up, up, the eery columns slithered, and I saw that all the travellers were converging as they flowed near a sort of focus of crazy alleys at the top of a high hill in the centre of the town, where perched a great white church. I had seen it from the road's crest when I looked at Kingsport in the new dusk, and it had made me shiver because Aldebaran had seemed to balance itself a moment on the ghostly spire.
There was an open space around the church; partly a churchyard with spectral shafts, and partly a half-paved square swept nearly bare of snow by the wind, and lined with unwholesomely archaic houses having peaked roofs and overhanging gables. Death-fires danced over the tombs, revealing gruesome vistas, though queerly failing to cast any shadows. Past the churchyard, where there were no houses, I could see over the hill's summit and watch the glimmer of stars on the harbour, though the town was invisible in the dark. Only once in a while a lantern bobbed horribly through serpentine alleys on its way to overtake the throng that was now slipping speechlessly into the church. I waited till the crowd had oozed into the black doorway, and till all the stragglers had followed. The old man was pulling at my sleeve, but I was determined to be the last. Crossing the threshold into the swarming temple of unknown darkness, I turned once to look at the outside world as the churchyard phosphorescence cast a sickly glow on the hilltop pavement. And as I did so I shuddered. For though the wind had not left much snow, a few patches did remain on the path near the door; and in that fleeting backward look it seemed to my troubled eyes that they bore no mark of passing feet, not even mine.
The church was scarce lighted by all the lanthorns that had entered it, for most of the throng had already vanished. They had streamed up the aisle between the high pews to the trap-door of the vaults which yawned loathsomely open just before the pulpit, and were now squirming noiselessly in. I followed dumbly down the foot-worn steps and into the dark, suffocating crypt. The tail of that sinuous line of night-marchers seemed very horrible, and as I saw them wriggling into a venerable tomb they seemed more horrible still. Then I noticed that the tomb's floor had an aperture down which the throng was sliding, and in a moment we were all descending an ominous staircase of rough-hewn stone; a narrow spiral staircase damp and peculiarly odorous, that wound endlessly down into the bowels of the hill past monotonous walls of dripping stone blocks and crumbling mortar. It was a silent, shocking descent, and I observed after a horrible interval that the walls and steps were changing in nature, as if chiselled out of the solid rock. What mainly troubled me was that the myriad footfalls made no sound and set up no echoes. After more aeons of descent I saw some side passages or burrows leading from unknown recesses of blackness to this shaft of nighted mystery. Soon they became excessively numerous, like impious catacombs of nameless menace; and their pungent odour of decay grew quite unbearable. I knew we must have passed down through the mountain and beneath the earth of Kingsport itself, and I shivered that a town should be so aged and maggoty with subterraneous evil.
Then I saw the lurid shimmering of pale light, and heard the insidious lapping of sunless waters. Again I shivered, for I did not like the things that the night had brought, and wished bitterly that no forefather had summoned me to this primal rite. As the steps and the passage grew broader, I heard another sound, the thin, whining mockery of a feeble flute; and suddenly there spread out before me the boundless vista of an inner world—a vast fungous shore litten by a belching column of sick greenish flame and washed by a wide oily river that flowed from abysses frightful and unsuspected to join the blackest gulfs of immemorial ocean.
Fainting and gasping, I looked at that unhallowed Erebus of titan toadstools, leprous fire and slimy water, and saw the cloaked throngs forming a semicircle around the blazing pillar. It was the Yule-rite, older than man and fated to survive him; the primal rite of the solstice and of spring's promise beyond the snows; the rite of fire and evergreen, light and music. And in the stygian grotto I saw them do the rite, and adore the sick pillar of flame, and throw into the water handfuls gouged out of the viscous vegetation which glittered green in the chlorotic glare. I saw this, and I saw something amorphously squatted far away from the light, piping noisomely on a flute; and as the thing piped I thought I heard noxious muffled flutterings in the foetid darkness where I could not see. But what frightened me most was that flaming column; spouting volcanically from depths profound and inconceivable, casting no shadows as healthy flame should, and coating the nitrous stone with a nasty, venomous verdigris. For in all that seething combustion no warmth lay, but only the clamminess of death and corruption.
The man who had brought me now squirmed to a point directly beside the hideous flame, and made stiff ceremonial motions to the semi-circle he faced. At certain stages of the ritual they did grovelling obeisance, especially when he held above his head that abhorrent Necronomicon he had taken with him; and I shared all the obeisances because I had been summoned to this festival by the writings of my forefathers. Then the old man made a signal to the half-seen flute-player in the darkness, which player thereupon changed its feeble drone to a scarce louder drone in another key; precipitating as it did so a horror unthinkable and unexpected. At this horror I sank nearly to the lichened earth, transfixed with a dread not of this or any world, but only of the mad spaces between the stars.
Out of the unimaginable blackness beyond the gangrenous glare of that cold flame, out of the tartarean leagues through which that oily river rolled uncanny, unheard, and unsuspected, there flopped rhythmically a horde of tame, trained, hybrid winged things that no sound eye could ever wholly grasp, or sound brain ever wholly remember. They were not altogether crows, nor moles, nor buzzards, nor ants, nor vampire bats, nor decomposed human beings; but something I cannot and must not recall. They flopped limply along, half with their webbed feet and half with their membranous wings; and as they reached the throng of celebrants the cowled figures seized and mounted them, and rode off one by one along the reaches of that unlighted river, into pits and galleries of panic where poison springs feed frightful and undiscoverable cataracts.
The old spinning woman had gone with the throng, and the old man remained only because I had refused when he motioned me to seize an animal and ride like the rest. I saw when I staggered to my feet that the amorphous flute-player had rolled out of sight, but that two of the beasts were patiently standing by. As I hung back, the old man produced his stylus and tablet and wrote that he was the true deputy of my fathers who had founded the Yule worship in this ancient place; that it had been decreed I should come back, and that the most secret mysteries were yet to be performed. He wrote this in a very ancient hand, and when I still hesitated he pulled from his loose robe a seal ring and a watch, both with my family arms, to prove that he was what he said. But it was a hideous proof, because I knew from old papers that that watch had been buried with my great-great-great-great-grandfather in 1698.
Presently the old man drew back his hood and pointed to the family resemblance in his face, but I only shuddered, because I was sure that the face was merely a devilish waxen mask. The flopping animals were now scratching restlessly at the lichens, and I saw that the old man was nearly as restless himself. When one of the things began to waddle and edge away, he turned quickly to stop it; so that the suddenness of his motion dislodged the waxen mask from what should have been his head. And then, because that nightmare's position barred me from the stone staircase down which we had come, I flung myself into the oily underground river that bubbled somewhere to the caves of the sea; flung myself into that putrescent juice of earth's inner horrors before the madness of my screams could bring down upon me all the charnel legions these pest-gulfs might conceal.
At the hospital they told me I had been found half-frozen in Kingsport Harbour at dawn, clinging to the drifting spar that accident sent to save me. They told me I had taken the wrong fork of the hill road the night before, and fallen over the cliffs at Orange Point; a thing they deduced from prints found in the snow. There was nothing I could say, because everything was wrong. Everything was wrong, with the broad windows showing a sea of roofs in which only about one in five was ancient, and the sound of trolleys and motors in the streets below. They insisted that this was Kingsport, and I could not deny it. When I went delirious at hearing that the hospital stood near the old churchyard on Central Hill, they sent me to St Mary's Hospital in Arkham, where I could have better care. I liked it there, for the doctors were broad-minded, and even lent me their influence in obtaining the carefully sheltered copy of Alhazred's objectionable Necronomicon from the library of Miskatonic University. They said something about a "psychosis" and agreed I had better get any harassing obsessions off my mind.
So I read that hideous chapter, and shuddered doubly because it was indeed not new to me. I had seen it before, let footprints tell what they might; and where it was I had seen it were best forgotten. There was no one—in waking hours—who could remind me of it; but my dreams are filled with terror, because of phrases I dare not quote. I dare quote only one paragraph, put into such English as I can make from the awkward Low Latin.
"The nethermost caverns," wrote the mad Arab, "are not for the fathoming of eyes that see; for their marvels are strange and terrific. Cursed the ground where dead thoughts live new and oddly bodied, and evil the mind that is held by no head. Wisely did Ibn Schacabao say, that happy is the tomb where no wizard hath lain, and happy the town at night whose wizards are all ashes. For it is of old rumour that the soul of the devil-bought hastes not from his charnel clay, but fats and instructs the very worm that gnaws; till out of corruption horrid life springs, and the dull scavengers of earth wax crafty to vex it and swell monstrous to plague it. Great holes secretly are digged where earth's pores ought to suffice, and things have learnt to walk that ought to crawl."

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Monday, December 22, 2014

The Gift of the Magi by O. Henry

The Gift of the Magi

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This story was originally published on Dec 10, 1905 in The New York Sunday World as "Gifts of the Magi." It was subsequently published as The Gift of the Magi in O. Henry's 1906 short story collection The Four Million.

An illustration for the story The Gift of the Magi by the author O. Henry
ONE DOLLAR AND EIGHTY-SEVEN CENTS. THAT WAS ALL. AND SIXTY CENTS of it was in pennies. Pennies saved one and two at a time by bulldozing the grocer and the vegetable man and the butcher until one's cheeks burned with the silent imputation of parsimony that such close dealing implied. Three times Della counted it. One dollar and eighty-seven cents. And the next day would be Christmas.
There was clearly nothing left to do but flop down on the shabby little couch and howl. So Della did it. Which instigates the moral reflection that life is made up of sobs, sniffles, and smiles, with sniffles predominating.
While the mistress of the home is gradually subsiding from the first stage to the second, take a look at the home. A furnished flat at $8 per week. It did not exactly beggar description, but it certainly had that word on the look-out for the mendicancy squad.
In the vestibule below was a letter-box into which no letter would go, and an electric button from which no mortal finger could coax a ring. Also appertaining thereunto was a card bearing the name "Mr. James Dillingham Young."
The "Dillingham" had been flung to the breeze during a former period of prosperity when its possessor was being paid $30 per week. Now, when the income was shrunk to $20, the letters of "Dillingham" looked blurred, as though they were thinking seriously of contracting to a modest and unassuming D. But whenever Mr. James Dillingham Young came home and reached his flat above he was called "Jim" and greatly hugged by Mrs. James Dillingham Young, already introduced to you as Della. Which is all very good.
Della finished her cry and attended to her cheeks with the powder rag. She stood by the window and looked out dully at a grey cat walking a grey fence in a grey backyard. To-morrow would be Christmas Day, and she had only $1.87 with which to buy Jim a present. She had been saving every penny she could for months, with this result. Twenty dollars a week doesn't go far. Expenses had been greater than she had calculated. They always are. Only $1.87 to buy a present for Jim. Her Jim. Many a happy hour she had spent planning for something nice for him. Something fine and rare and sterling--something just a little bit near to being worthy of the honour of being owned by Jim.
There was a pier-glass between the windows of the room. Perhaps you have seen a pier-glass in an $8 Bat. A very thin and very agile person may, by observing his reflection in a rapid sequence of longitudinal strips, obtain a fairly accurate conception of his looks. Della, being slender, had mastered the art.
Suddenly she whirled from the window and stood before the glass. Her eyes were shining brilliantly, but her face had lost its colour within twenty seconds. Rapidly she pulled down her hair and let it fall to its full length.
Now, there were two possessions of the James Dillingham Youngs in which they both took a mighty pride. One was Jim's gold watch that had been his father's and his grandfather's. The other was Della's hair. Had the Queen of Sheba lived in the flat across the airshaft, Della would have let her hair hang out of the window some day to dry just to depreciate Her Majesty's jewels and gifts. Had King Solomon been the janitor, with all his treasures piled up in the basement, Jim would have pulled out his watch every time he passed, just to see him pluck at his beard from envy.
So now Della's beautiful hair fell about her, rippling and shining like a cascade of brown waters. It reached below her knee and made itself almost a garment for her. And then she did it up again nervously and quickly. Once she faltered for a minute and stood still while a tear or two splashed on the worn red carpet.
On went her old brown jacket; on went her old brown hat. With a whirl of skirts and with the brilliant sparkle still in her eyes, she cluttered out of the door and down the stairs to the street.
Where she stopped the sign read: "Mme Sofronie. Hair Goods of All Kinds." One Eight up Della ran, and collected herself, panting. Madame, large, too white, chilly, hardly looked the "Sofronie."
"Will you buy my hair?" asked Della.
"I buy hair," said Madame. "Take yer hat off and let's have a sight at the looks of it."
Down rippled the brown cascade.
"Twenty dollars," said Madame, lifting the mass with a practised hand.
"Give it to me quick" said Della.
Oh, and the next two hours tripped by on rosy wings. Forget the hashed metaphor. She was ransacking the stores for Jim's present.
She found it at last. It surely had been made for Jim and no one else. There was no other like it in any of the stores, and she had turned all of them inside out. It was a platinum fob chain simple and chaste in design, properly proclaiming its value by substance alone and not by meretricious ornamentation--as all good things should do. It was even worthy of The Watch. As soon as she saw it she knew that it must be Jim's. It was like him. Quietness and value--the description applied to both. Twenty-one dollars they took from her for it, and she hurried home with the 78 cents. With that chain on his watch Jim might be properly anxious about the time in any company. Grand as the watch was, he sometimes looked at it on the sly on account of the old leather strap that he used in place of a chain.
When Della reached home her intoxication gave way a little to prudence and reason. She got out her curling irons and lighted the gas and went to work repairing the ravages made by generosity added to love. Which is always a tremendous task dear friends--a mammoth task.
Within forty minutes her head was covered with tiny, close-lying curls that made her look wonderfully like a truant schoolboy. She looked at her reflection in the mirror long, carefully, and critically.
"If Jim doesn't kill me," she said to herself, "before he takes a second look at me, he'll say I look like a Coney Island chorus girl. But what could I do--oh! what could I do with a dollar and eighty-seven cents?"
At 7 o'clock the coffee was made and the frying-pan was on the back of the stove hot and ready to cook the chops.
Jim was never late. Della doubled the fob chain in her hand and sat on the corner of the table near the door that he always entered. Then she heard his step on the stair away down on the first flight, and she turned white for just a moment. She had a habit of saying little silent prayers about the simplest everyday things, and now she whispered: "Please, God, make him think I am still pretty."
The door opened and Jim stepped in and closed it. He looked thin and very serious. Poor fellow, he was only twenty-two--and to be burdened with a family! He needed a new overcoat and he was with out gloves.
Jim stepped inside the door, as immovable as a setter at the scent of quail. His eyes were fixed upon Della, and there was an expression in them that she could not read, and it terrified her. It was not anger, nor surprise, nor disapproval, nor horror, nor any of the sentiments that she had been prepared for. He simply stared at her fixedly with that peculiar expression on his face.
Della wriggled off the table and went for him.
"Jim, darling," she cried, "don't look at me that way. I had my hair cut off and sold it because I couldn't have lived through Christmas without giving you a present. It'll grow out again--you won't mind, will you? I just had to do it. My hair grows awfully fast. Say 'Merry Christmas!' Jim, and let's be happy. You don't know what a nice-what a beautiful, nice gift I've got for you."
"You've cut off your hair?" asked Jim, laboriously, as if he had not arrived at that patent fact yet, even after the hardest mental labour.
"Cut it off and sold it," said Della. "Don't you like me just as well, anyhow? I'm me without my hair, ain't I?"
Jim looked about the room curiously.
"You say your hair is gone?" he said, with an air almost of idiocy.
"You needn't look for it," said Della. "It's sold, I tell you--sold and gone, too. It's Christmas Eve, boy. Be good to me, for it went for you. Maybe the hairs of my head were numbered," she went on with a sudden serious sweetness, "but nobody could ever count my love for you. Shall I put the chops on, Jim?"
Out of his trance Jim seemed quickly to wake. He enfolded his Della. For ten seconds let us regard with discreet scrutiny some inconsequential object in the other direction. Eight dollars a week or a million a year--what is the difference? A mathematician or a wit would give you the wrong answer. The magi brought valuable gifts, but that was not among them. I his dark assertion will be illuminated later on.
Jim drew a package from his overcoat pocket and threw it upon the table.
"Don't make any mistake, Dell," he said, "about me. I don't think there's anything in the way of a haircut or a shave or a shampoo that could make me like my girl any less. But if you'll unwrap that package you may see why you had me going a while at first."
White fingers and nimble tore at the string and paper. And then an ecstatic scream of joy; and then, alas! a quick feminine change to hysterical tears and wails, necessitating the immediate employment of all the comforting powers of the lord of the flat.
For there lay The Combs--the set of combs, side and back, that Della had worshipped for long in a Broadway window. Beautiful combs, pure tortoise-shell, with jewelled rims--just the shade to wear in the beautiful vanished hair. They were expensive combs, she knew, and her heart had simply craved and yearned over them without the least hope of possession. And now, they were hers, but the tresses that should have adorned the coveted adornments were gone.
But she hugged them to her bosom, and at length she was able to look up with dim eyes and a smile and say: "My hair grows so fast, Jim!"
And then Della leaped up like a little singed cat and cried, "Oh, oh!"
Jim had not yet seen his beautiful present. She held it out to him eagerly upon her open palm. The dull precious metal seemed to flash with a reflection of her bright and ardent spirit.
"Isn't it a dandy, Jim? I hunted all over town to find it. You'll have to look at the time a hundred times a day now. Give me your watch. I want to see how it looks on it."
Instead of obeying, Jim tumbled down on the couch and put his hands under the back of his head and smiled.
"Dell," said he, "let's put our Christmas presents away and keep 'em a while. They're too nice to use just at present. I sold the watch to get the money to buy your combs. And now suppose you put the chops on."
The magi, as you know, were wise men--wonderfully wise men-who brought gifts to the Babe in the manger. They invented the art of giving Christmas presents. Being wise, their gifts were no doubt wise ones, possibly bearing the privilege of exchange in case of duplication. And here I have lamely related to you the uneventful chronicle of two foolish children in a flat who most unwisely sacrificed for each other the greatest treasures of their house. But in a last word to the wise of these days let it be said that of all who give gifts these two were the wisest. Of all who give and receive gifts, such as they are wisest. Everywhere they are wisest. They are the magi.

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